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Agatha All Along is getting more fun by the episode.

Watched the pilot of Brilliant Minds because it stars Zachary Quinto, whomst I love, and I enjoyed it. I think it's promising, even if it's kind of weird to see him on a network procedural.

I am still really regretting having picked up that extra shift at work for tomorrow, uggggggh. I should be staying up late getting shit done, instead I have to trudge my ass to work on my day off. It'll be fine. I need the money, and I'm helping out my co-workers. But still, I allow myself a short moment to whine about it.

We're also having a plumber here in the morning to find a leak my roommate discovered we had, and they're supposed to show up very early, so hopefully they don't wake me up. Also hopefully they can find the leak quickly and easily, and will know how to fix it without having to do much damage. I hear that if it's a slab leak, they might have to tear up damn near the whole kitchen, which would be... bad.

Tomorrow, I can officially say to my girlfriend "I get to see you in one week!" and that will be my reward at the end of all this, once I've worked hard all week and spent my weekend in a frenzy of chores and errands. I might try to get a few errands done after work tomorrow night, if the places I need to go are still open, so I don't have to do quite so much on Saturday. Shopping on Saturday really does not bring out the best in me, on account of Other People Everywhere.

I can't believe I've already been home for four days.

I miss my girl. I am tired of coughing and hacking up phlegm. It's really hot here.

I tried to catch up on what I missed of my Reading Page but it only goes back so far, so I'm afraid I've missed lots of updates. Many apologies.

Gotta go back to work tomorrow, and I'm not ready. I still feel like hot garbage, but I've taken the last pill in my Zpac today, so I guess there's not really anything else I can do except rest as much as possible and continue hydrating. I am far better than I was, so at least that's progress!

I wish it were easier to share photos here on DW. I keep going through my collection of vacation pictures, wanting to show some off. Maybe I'll stop being lazy and just upload a few.

I saw Deadpool & Wolverine today and loved it. As a long-time X-Men fan and a lover of both Deadpool and Wolverine, it was delightful fun. Worth the wait. Might even see it again.

Man.

Time just keeps getting away from me.

I forget to come here and blog. I forget to read my feed. I forget to do much else that isn't sleeping, working, hanging with my girlfriend (!!! still not used to saying that!) or grinding out a few choice special interests.

I forgot I had a bill due tomorrow, I will have to pay it post-haste right after I finish this entry!

I forgot I had a drabble for seasonsofdrabbles due in like a day and a half! Anyone want to ghost write it for me? No? Okay. Better get my ass in gear, then.

I went to the after-hours Star Wars Nite event at Disneyland a couple of days ago and it rocked. The park empty, except for die hard SW fans. Tons of very tasty limited edition food. Cosplayers everywhere. Character meet and greets (Luke and Leia, R2, C3PO, Fennec Shand, Ahsoka, Mando, Boba Fett, Queen Amidala, Ewoks, Darths Vader and Maul, Captain Phasma, Hera and Chopper!), an awesome lightsaber meetup, an Imperial march, a dance party at the hub and all down Main Street, all the rides a walk-on! Definitely would do again, so hopefully they hold the same event next year.

My roommate left the sliding glass door open for too long and a mosquito eater came inside and is menacing me. By menacing I just mean scaring me, since I know they are harmless to humans and are in fact good to have around but they are BIG AND SCARY LOOKING AND I HATE IT. My brain is also telling me to itch which is ridiculous.

Two of my co-workers are gone on vacation which means I am ultra busy at work. Which is fine? I can take extra shifts to cover for them, and to earn myself bigger paychecks, which I will need. Oh yes, I will need.

Better get back on top of my game. Sigh.

Signed up for startrekholidays, and not sure why! I just. Really wanted to. Even though I'm so busy and overwhelmed that I'm barely even online much these days except to check in on things every so often.

I dunnoooooo I just wanted to be a part of it. I signed up last year but was notified and told that I was "unmatchable" lol.

You're tellin' me. My dating history would certainly agree, badum-tiss.

Today was my last day at my first job, and it was... a mixed bag. I only had two patients on my schedule. The first was my favorite, and when I let her know I wouldn't be coming back, she cried and gave me a hug and we exchanged contact information. The second was a very sweet old woman I am familiar with, but haven't worked on since 2021. It was a very soft, pleasant session with some lovely conversation. I will miss them both.

My co-workers, on the other hand, I have no idea what their problem was. None of them said a word to me all day, except the office manager, who wished me well as I was clocking out and leaving. Honestly, they've all been snubbing me a lot these past several months for unknown reasons, but being treated like I was invisible really got under my skin today. We used to have a pretty great relationship, but everyone has cooled significantly toward me, and I haven't the faintest idea why. At least it helped me leave without feeling guilty or, really, all that sad.

Anyway. I work all day again tomorrow and then I've got three days off in a row, so I should be able to get some stuff done then (if I don't sleep the whole time).

Quit my first job today, and cried about it, which is not unusual. I always cry when I quit a job, even if I didn't particularly like the job or if it had stopped serving me. I do like that job. Did. I love the location. It's clean and modern and pretty. It felt like home. I love the office manager. I liked my co-workers, and my boss, and my patients. But. It's a 40 minute commute (each way), gas is $5.50 a gallon locally, and I pay almost $20 in toll road fees each time I go. There's never any work for me to do anymore. It just doesn't make sense.

Tomorrow, I have to quit my second. It's going to be harder, and I'm going to feel even more guilty, since I only started in June and I know he's pleased by how well patients are liking me and requesting me and wanting to keep booking with me. I'm a high earner there. I see more patients per day than any of his other therapists. He probably thought I was going to be there for a long while. I will feel really bad, telling him that after only three months I've got to go.

But it has to be done. I start my new job the last week of this month, and a two weeks notice is standard quitting etiquette.

The weather is cooling off, which I am very grateful for. It even rained a little today!

I decided to get one of those Google certificates. A friend of mine mentioned that she's working on one in data analytics, so I took a look and did some investigating. It takes roughly 3-6 months to get one, and at $50/month, that's... not bad, so far as education goes. Google claims that with a decent resume (which they will help with) and confidence in interviewing (which they will also help with) and assistance in finding companies looking to hire (from their enormous database), a person should be able to get a pretty decent entry-level job in their field of study. So, hey. Maybe I study IT or coding.

If that doesn't pan out, I'm going back to school to finish my associates in health science. I never finished, because I took a hard right and went to massage school instead.

I've got a job interview tomorrow! With the clinic that is literally right down the street from me.

I'm excited because:

It's so close! I don't have to get up as early or get home as late!

I will save SO MUCH GAS not commuting, which is huge, especially since gas has skyrocketed back up to $5+ per gallon in a lot of places.

I won't have to get on the freeway AT ALL.

It's right next to a Starbucks, a donut shop, a Thai place, a sushi restaurant, and my favorite place to get carne asada fries.

It's right around the corner from the post office, the bank, Walmart, Target, and my gym, so very convenient.

It pays well!

The doctor I'd be working for is named Dr. Kirk, which I'm choosing to see as a sign. He seems very friendly and competent and personable from all the messages we've been exchanging on Indeed. I can't wait to meet him!

I NEED THIS, PLEASE, UNIVERSE. DO ME A SOLID.

Also... discord is down, for some reason, and it's horrible. I feel completely cut off from my friends. That's the only platform we use to talk! Wah, guys, please fix it. Appreciate you, IT guys.

It's starting to get a little warmer, but it's nearly the end of June and it's still not hot here, which I find... highly suspect. Even so, as a person who is made weak and listless by heat and lives in the home of a cheapo man who refuses to "waste" money on AC, I'll take the mild weather for as long as I can have it.

The new job is treating me alright now that I'm used to it, but there are still some things about it I don't love. I've got my eyes and ears open for more options, but for now I'm just chugging along. They work me hard there, and I'm utterly exhausted by the time I get home (after sitting in traffic on the freeway for an hour+). Because I have been so busy, time has been flying by. Before I know it, I look up and another week has passed.

I've got some things to look forward to, even if I have mixed feelings about them now. San Diego Comic Con is about a month away, and I am very excited because it has been nigh on impossible to get into this con for the past several years. Then, Star Trek Las Vegas is the first week of August, which I'm also obviously pretty stoked for. Both of these were planned months and months ago, before all the shit started hitting the fan, so it's like... while I'm excited, I'm also very money-conscious and aware that my experiences have to be kept minimal. I've been sacking nearly everything I've been making from both my jobs away into the Fix My Damned Car fund after using what I need to pay my bills, but I still feel guilty about spending anything on myself when I don't need to.

I ended up not signing up for crossworks because... eh, I dunno. I combed meticulously through all the requests and there was nothing that I really felt up to writing. I'll just have to catch the next event!

Hope everyone is doing okay. <3

I have been so busy, and so tired.

I ended up getting the job I interviewed for, so that's good! It's just... sort of a janky place, and I have seen a whole basket of red flags, so I'm not sure how long I'm going to work there. I did also set up another interview for this coming Wednesday at a place much closer to home, so if the money is right and the atmosphere is more professional, I might just have to take it and regrettably inform the guy who just hired me that I won't be staying.

Still no word from my friend.

My car still runs, but I hear sounds I never heard before and the car pulls to one side, which is troubling. I'm still convinced the bumper is going to fall off any second. One of my headlights is dimmer than the other, in account of being crunched in.

I forgot to talk about Seasons of Drabbles, but I did actually write something I'm pretty proud of, and I got lots of lovely treats!

I need to add my newer fics to my profile. I need to reply to comments people have left me. I tried catching up on my Reading Page but it would only allow me to go back so far. I hope you're all doing well.

I've had three newish fandoms to keep me company during this time, distracting me while I try to claw myself out of my slump. Ted Lasso has been an absolute joy in every way. I straight up sobbed my way through the finale. Dungeons & Dragons: Honor Among Thieves has been a really fun thing to linger on. The characters are just so great, and it's reminded me of just how much I've always loved the magical fantasy genre. I don't play games, but I've been watching a friend stream her gameplay of Jedi: Survivor and oh, no. Oh gosh. I have Cal/Bode brainrot, though shockingly I haven't seen... a lot of fanworks for it, even though from the very first moment the two met I saw it and I'm surprised more people did not also see it.

I'll probably feel better when I manage to get some good, solid rest and when I finally get everything organized. I'm working on it.

The Good

My first meeting with my new therapist was great. I really, really like her! She's younger, more chatty, easier to talk to; it's a more natural flow of conversation rather than the feeling I used to have with my old therapist that I had to somehow perform and come up with things to say. I look forward to working with her!

This past Saturday I went to the Frank & Son collectibles show, and had nice time. Cleaned up on Pops, got a handful of cheap-o Disney pins for trading purposes, and a large plush Arcanine whom I love, big fluffy doggo.

Tomorrow I am going to Disneyland, where I aim to use the aforementioned traders to trade for some more great pins. It's also supposed to be raining, so I hope that means the crowds are kept down. Splash Mountain closes forever in May, so I definitely need to get on that at least once. I bought a rain poncho, so I'm all set!

That Person has been very sweet and playful lately. I waffle sometimes over whether this is a good thing or not, as I am often left feeling bereft when this behavior stops and I'm sure when I tell her about it my new therapist will agree that sticking around for it is keeping me from fully healing and moving on, but... for the time being? It's making me really happy.


The Bad

Still not writing anything. Don't know what has happened. It's like the part of my brain that knows how to put words together went out to the corner store to buy milk and never came back. I have ideas! I just can't seem to actually work on anything.

A very long crack appeared in the ceiling, so of course I'm worrying about that now.

The other day, on the way home, I stopped at the gas station. When I got out of my car, I noticed the nearby trash can was full of bees, so I very quickly leapt back into my car to avoid any bees getting inside, and accidentally brained myself on the edge of my car. No bees got inside, but I knocked myself for such a loop that I was dizzy for the rest of the afternoon, and I still have a terrible headache. This was three days ago, now.

My mom keeps texting me with tons of terrible news. She needs surgery for her thyroid. She slipped several discs in her back. Her legs are numb, and the other day, she fainted at the grocery store. She is in very poor shape and needs an MRI, so I hope she gets that soon. I'm just really worried about her, and there's nothing I can do, given she lives two states away.


The Dirty

Today, one of my co-workers took a part out of the washing machine to clean it, and did not put it back properly. The result was that this huge industrial sized washer ended up leaking, flooding the office. The X-Ray room. The break room. Two of the treatment rooms, the hallway, and a huge section of the front desk. We had to scramble to unplug and move computers and X-ray equipment. Every towel, blanket and exam gown we had went right onto the floor to try and soak up as much of the water as we could.

Good lord. It took hours to clean up. All the while, all of the treatment rooms were full, the doctor was busy, and the rest of us were just trying our best. I just know that the carpet is going to smell like mildew. Also, RIP all our laundry.

I am so tired. My morning shift at the clinic felt longer than eternity itself.

I got home not too long ago, made myself something to eat, and settled in to finish reading this fic I was really digging, and looking forward to finishing all morning. Got through a few more chapters before realizing that... it was a WIP.

And it has not been updated since 2014.

screams into a pillow

I need a nap.