☆paging doctor gorgeous☆

Life is CHAOS, y'all.

When I got my massage last week, I didn't just feel icky because of flushing metabolic waste. Turns out I was really coming down with a pretty bad cold, so that was fun. This is after I made the commitment to help cover some shifts at work, too, since one of our therapists just up and left with no notice (and in fact had her dad call in and tell us she wasn't come back, oof).

I'm mostly recovered from that, but. A couple of days ago, there was a crisis at Blair's grandparents' house. Her grandfather couldn't get up. Her grandmother (who is slowly developing Alzheimer's) could not care for him. Relatives showed up, found him on the floor covered in his own filth and delirious, and he was sent by ambulance to the hospital. A couple days later, we now know he has aggressive liver cancer and will be released into hospice tomorrow. The family is not coping well. I want to be there for Blair and her family, and I am trying to be, but I feel almost as though they do not want to be observed by an outsider.

Blair and I are in the lab now, as customary these days; me keeping her company, her working feverishly on a project. She received news from her sister that her uncle and aunt have wormed their way into moving into her other grandmother's basement, and will be getting her house from her. That house was built and perfected by her husband, and he told her before he passed away that it was for her to live in and then to sell when one day she needed care. Blair, her mom, and that side of the family are furious. She's been in the hall on the phone trying to talk some sense into her grandmother.

When it rains, it pours. There is tragedy and drama on both sides of Blair's family, and man, I don't know what to do except for be here.

On a lighter note, I did something wild (for me). I signed up to be a contributor for a Star Wars zine. They accept art, fic, poetry, even cosplay and a lot more, and, well! I can write, and also Blair and I are cosplayers, so I figured I would sign up. No idea whether I will be accepted, but I felt inspired to take a shot, because hell, why not? It could be very cool to have something I made in a fan zine. It would certainly be a first for me.

Tickets to Star Wars Celebration, the hugest of the huge Star Wars fan events, go on sale tomorrow. Blair will be in class and I'll be at work, so no idea what my chances are of scoring tickets. I don't think I'm even going to ask Blair if she still wants to go, because she can barely handle being asked a question right now, she has so much on her plate, is so stressed, wound so tight. If I can get them, I suppose it will be a nice surprise, and we'll make it work. The event is next year, anyhow.

Tomorrow tomorrow tomorrow she'll be here tomorrow ahh

I have just a few final things I need to get done today and then everything will be ready. And then my shift tomorrow is going to be the longest, most grueling shift I have ever worked. When I'm finally off, I'll have to dash home, eat something real quick, take a shower and change and then make the trek all the way to LAX to fetch my bae.

I'm so excited. How am I supposed to get anything done? How am I supposed to sleep?

I really wanna go comb through peoples' baskets over at fandomgiftbasket and try to start plotting out gifts and treats I can contribute but I won't have time, I'm afraid! Not for the next couple of weeks. Y'all should totally go do it, though! You don't have to be signed up to write someone a drabble or make a couple of icons or leave recs for music or books or recipes. It's fun! It's fulfilling! I promise.

Had a really great therapy session today.

Been writing out and sending holiday cards to friends and DW homies, and wrapping gifts for my family. Very aware that all the Christmas music I listen to while I do these cheerful chores may actually impact my Spotify Wrapped since I spent a huge chunk of the year not using Spotify at all, whoops?

My root canal went great. I was scared, but there was 0 pain during the procedure. It was after the numbness wore off that ooh, I get it now, oh no. Luckily my dentist prescribed industrial strength ibuprofen, but I still can't use that side of my mouth to chew at all. Going back next week to get the crown.

My infatuation with Sabine Wren and Shin Hati is not calming down and I am in fact rattling my cage wondering when creatives are going to start making pins of them for me to add to my collection.

I am really, really excited for the new year. I am ready for a fresh start. I'm getting my hair cut into a new style and colored - I got permission from my new boss to use whatever color I want, so I think I'm going purple maybe? It's a color I've never been! - and also.

Also.

That Person and I are getting matching tattoos. Well. She already got hers, so now it's my turn. I'm still researching various artists in and around my city trying to find someone I like. It's my first and maybe only tattoo, so I just. Need it to be perfect.

Speaking of That Person, we had a conversation the other night that led to her telling me that some days, she thinks she wants what we used to have. I didn't know what to say to that other than to thank her for telling me, and to reiterate that our friendship is the cornerstone of everything and it is what I cherish the most, but that if she were to want those other things, they are hers unconditionally. I didn't ask any follow up questions. I didn't say much more than that. I just let it pass me by, because... I don't know. That was vague language. I don't want to push for anything, especially since, as much as I would love it, I don't need it. She makes me really happy, being my best friend.

So anyway, things are going pretty good, aside from the fact that the DSS absolutely refuses to communicate with me re: my stolen food benefits. I have called so many people so many times over the past several months. No one answers the phone. No one returns my calls. I leave voicemails. Nothing. I eventually got fed up and wrote a letter that I sent to the office, begging for at least acknowledgement, and nothing.

I called yesterday to make an appointment to go into the office, because apparently that's what I will have to do in order to get any attention, and the lady said they don't do that over the phone. HUH? She said I have to go into the office. I asked "So I have to go into the office to make an appointment to go into the office?" and she said "Yes."

Kay.

So, that's me! Hope you're all doing well!

I am sick. Hooray and huzzah.

I was absolutely petrified to call in sick to work this morning, because I've only been working there for about a month and a half now and I know how important to the doctor it is that we avoid same-day call-ins whenever possible to avoid pissing off patients who have had their appointments booked for awhile. But... I felt like hot garbage, and I was winded just getting up to use the bathroom and get a drink of water, and I knew there was no way I could do five back to back hours of deep tissue massage without passing tf out, so I just... psyched myself up and called.

And all three people I ended up speaking to on the phone remarked upon how terrible I sounded, and then the doctor's wife posted to the group chat about how if we're feeling ill we shouldn't push through, so I felt better having her on my side, too.

I was going to try and tough it out but I'm really, really glad that I decided not to. I slept most of the day and I'm still tired. This is the first I've been out of bed since lunch time, when I managed a little food. I had to reschedule my root canal too, which was scheduled for tomorrow, but uhhhhh yeah that's not going to happen right now.

I accidentally started shipping a new pairing and I don't really know what to do with myself. It's been awhile since I've shipped something new! In the Star Wars fandom, too, which is more interesting still since I wasn't big time into this fandom until just this year. It's an easy ship to like when the cast is in on it too, and very publicly support and applaud the ship (in a non-baity way, which I know has been an issue with casts before).

So, if you like Star Wars, you enjoy femslash, and you're into the rivals/enemies-to-lovers trope, may I submit WolfWren, or Sabine Wren/Shin Hati? If it weren't such a pain to post images here on DW I'd share a few, but instead I'll leave it to you, dear reader, to ferret out some fanart if your interest is piqued.

I'm excited to search AO3 for it for the first time, and see what's out there.

Anyway. Honestly, not much has been going on with me. I don't have anything to write at the moment, which feels weird, but I'm so busy and sick and stressed and agitated lately that it's probably a good thing I haven't got any looming deadlines.

Hope you're all doing okay, friends.

I did three small fills for fandomgiftbasket this weekend, but oof, there are still so, so many baskets with nothing in them. Gonna have to roll up my sleeves and try to find the time to maybe do some other little fills. I've not had the time, energy or the motivation to do any writing lately so it's mostly been other stuff.

If you've got the free time and whatnot, perhaps pop on over and have a look at the spreadsheet, and see if you feel moved to do any fills?

Used my weekend to try and catch up on some tv to avoid being spoiled left, right and center.

Finished season 3 of The Witcher (oh, my god).
Finished season 2 of Good Omens (oh, my GOD?????).
Catching up on season 2 of Strange New Worlds (omggggg).

What a weekend.

I love them both very much, but my selections could not be more diametrically opposed, huh? Haha. Surely these will help me get into the mood to write. Next time she opens her shop, I'll have to get some of her other ones; I'd had my eye on Coffee Shop AU, Enemies to Lovers, and Soulmate AU. She's also got Smut, Only One Bed, Pining, Angst, and a few more.

Her youtube channel is ColeyDoesThings and from there you can find a link to her shop if you're interested in these, though it only opens periodically. Still, I adore Coley and her content is gold! I share some of her videos here from time to time.

Just signed up for fandomtrees!

I love, love, love events like this, because they are super low-pressure, and you can just flit around looking at everyone's wishlists and leaving treats as you're inspired to do so if you have the time and energy. Anyone can leave a gift, too; you don't have to be signed up in any official capacity if you don't want to be. Check it out!

Gotta get my ass in gear. It's 7:30. I have to take my NyQuil by 10 if I want to be knocked out early enough to get a good night's sleep for the early shift at work tomorrow. Then I drive all the way down to San Diego to meet up with my friend for the weekend. I haven't showered yet. I haven't packed yet. Whoo. Too busy screwing around on DW haha.

Also I'm just in a really good mood because I had butter chicken poutine for dinner from this new Indian fusion place nearby.

5. There is a time-travel device at your disposal. You can travel to any time in the past or future: where are you going to? asked by dr_zook

I have thought about this a lot, because as some of you have found out by now, I overthink everything and end up taking memes way more seriously than they were intended. So, rambling under the cut!

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This week I watched all of A League of Their Own and The Sandman. The recent remakes, of course. Very, very different vibes, but I loved them both!

It's my roommate's birthday, which means we had a proud tradition to uphold tonight. Whenever it's his birthday or mine, we always go to Red Robin, take advantage of the free burger people get on their birthday, and then try to conquer our previous record of how many baskets of endless free-refill fries we can get through. Our all-time record is 8, and we only made it through 6 today. I blame it on the milkshake we shared.

The ants are gone. An exterminator came to the house and took care of it, but his visit really validated me. I was not exaggerating our predicament. This man, who has been in the business for many years, was so alarmed by how many ants we had in so many different locations around the house that he got on the phone with his manager to ask for advice. In the end, he got it done, and we haven't seen any since. I'm so happy. It was so bad that I would just see ants crawling around whenever I closed my eyes.

Also, fandomgiftbasket could use some help! Maybe half the participants haven't received any gifts, and most of the others only have one item. Gift reveals are supposed to be on September 13th, so we've still got some time. You do not have to officially be signed up to leave a gift in somebody's basket, so if you've got some free time or are looking for an outlet for some creative energy and might like to contribute, there's a handy dandy spreadsheet here that you can peep to see what sorts of fills are needed. I'm working on a couple of things myself.