☆paging doctor gorgeous☆

I spent all day pulling and packing stuff and I am so, so tired, and my feet hurt, and I really don't want to go to work tomorrow but I must make that cheddar.

The plan is to make another run to my storage unit and the new place on Saturday, as well as take more donations to GoodWill and the library. I still need to acquire more boxes, but I prefer the plastic bins I can re-use, lift by the handles, and neatly stack versus the cardboard variety.

I officially move on Tuesday (unless the movers cancel on account of the rain) but I know I'm absolutely not going to be completely done. I'll have to return here at least once, maybe twice, to finish up with my books an the rest of my clothes and dishes.

I was going to go to Disneyland on Thursday but honestly I think I'll probably be so tired I won't want to do anything at all haha.

On a nicer note, I was able to start chatting with the person who placed the high bid on me for Fandom Trumps Hate! I think I'm actually really looking forward to writing something, and something long at that, because I think I offered up some longfic in an attempt to make people feel like bidding on me would really be worth it. I'm happy, too, that I in some small way helped to raise money for a good cause.

What a mish-mash this post is about to be.

Do you guys make sure you respond to every comment you get on your fics, on AO3? I logged in for the first time in awhile, went to my dash, and noticed the number on my inbox. I literally never check my inbox and notifs are spotty, but there's lots of comments people have left on my fics that I hadn't addressed, some from like a year ago. I feel bad for not acknowledging peoples' compliments, so I went through and answered some, but not all.

I caught wind of a new product I will absolutely be on the hunt for, starting NOW: red velvet Reese's. Hooooooooo is that relevant to my interests. I'm going to buy ten. No, twenty.

I've been listening to Spotify a lot lately, which might seem like a weirdly random and mundane thing to talk about, but for some reason I just usually don't and then I'm really disappointed in my lackluster Spotify Wrapped at the end of the year haha. I want to feed it lots of yummy plays so I can get some interesting stats, man! Anyone got some music recs? Genre doesn't matter.

Day 600873666 of trying to find a work from home job I can actually do, that doesn't require me to be an expert in coding or data analysis. Fail fail fail. I won't be able to do massage (legally) anymore when I move to Wisconsin, since my license is only for California. I could do something else, of course, but honestly I feel like with snow and ice everywhere for several months out of the year and lots of rain for even more than that, a work from home job really would be a huge boon to this Southern Californian transplant. I'll keep trying. Barring that, the local healthcare system has a pretty rad program within one of its local facilities where they will pay you to learn on the job rather than doing a traditional course, and I'm pretty interested in it. I had thought of maybe being a pharmacy tech once upon a time but if I took a course here in California it'd take me like a year and cost me thousands. Could be a wonderful new adventure, and a good career shift.

I have to be real, this TikTok fiasco is sort of grating on my nerves. I don't use the app and never have, but a lot of friends of mine became absolutely consumed to the point that one of them has had to start seeing a therapist for honest to god addiction to it. Because of this and the rampant false information and bad advice being spread by TikTok influencers that has even managed to impact me at my job a time or two, it's put a bad taste in my mouth. As far as I'm concerned it's good riddance, except 1) I know a lot of people actually depend on it for a variety of reasons, and so I feel bad for people who would lose their emotional support app and/or source of income, and 2) I would bet my next paycheck that it will be back within a week anyway, which seems pretty obvious to me.

I remember saying, very optimistically, that I wanted to better keep record of what I'm reading and watching on a weekly basis and, whoops, January's almost over.

Finished season 2 of Squid Game and have been watching What If...? and finishing up Star Wars: Skeleton Crew. Only good things to say all around.

Currently reading I'll Be Gone In The Dark: One Woman's Obsessive Search For The Golden State Killer by Michelle McNamera.

If you like Star Wars and you like drabbles, may I interest you in taking a look at starwars100?

They post two prompts every Sunday, and you can write anything you want! All media, from the movies and shows to the video games and novels and even comics, are game. Write original characters too, if you want! I love this community and want to see it succeed, but sadly there are only like two or three active writers presently, which doesn't exactly bode well for the life of a writing community.

Anyway if you're into writing bite sized snippets of fiction about a galaxy far, far away, have yourself a look and jump on in!

To this day, I still have a minor panic every time I sign up for something.

Still, I sign up.

Here's hoping life calms tf down for a bit so I can write a little something for Halloween.

Man, I was given just the most difficult, inconvenient and un-fun assignment for intoabar, but them's the breaks I guess! Uuuuugh hahaha, I'll still try and do it even though I am less than enthusiastic about it. That's the nature of the beast.

I have off work today, so I've got to do all sorts of chores: vacuuming, dishes, taking out the trash. While I was digging through my old files looking for my birth certificate for the DMV (everything went fine by the way! shocking!) I found a ton of old papers I don't need anymore, so I'll have to shred and dispose of those. I have laundry to put away, parts of my cosplay I should be working on, and plenty to tidy and straighten up before my roommate returns from his trip in a couple of days.

I'll miss having the house to myself, but every day that passes is a day closer to That Person getting here. We're almost in June, and then I can say "I get to see her next month."

All in all, life has been quite boring lately. Wish I had more to talk about!

This week between Christmas and New Years is so weird.

I had to work Wednesday and I have to work today too, but like, they're weird days. People not showing up. People canceling. I did get lots of cash tips on Wednesday though? Which isn't the norm. So I'm grateful for that.

I meant to try and write some things for fandomtrees and Sapphic Stocking Stuffers but I've just been really busy and stressed and out of sorts. There's still time, so I'm going to try and contribute something by the end of the year if I can.

Saturday I have to go to the dentist again, and man, I didn't even know they were open on Saturdays. Sunday I'm going to jump on a train again and make my way allllll the way down to Santa Monica for a Star Wars exhibition on New Year's Eve. I wouldn't normally want to be out traveling on New Year's Eve, but it's early in the day and if everything goes off without a hitch, I should be home, safe, and snug by like 4:30pm.

This hair dye did the trick but gosh, it fades so fast. I might have to dye it again tomorrow night before I head out on my little day trip.

Signed up for startrekholidays, and not sure why! I just. Really wanted to. Even though I'm so busy and overwhelmed that I'm barely even online much these days except to check in on things every so often.

I dunnoooooo I just wanted to be a part of it. I signed up last year but was notified and told that I was "unmatchable" lol.

You're tellin' me. My dating history would certainly agree, badum-tiss.

Today was my last day at my first job, and it was... a mixed bag. I only had two patients on my schedule. The first was my favorite, and when I let her know I wouldn't be coming back, she cried and gave me a hug and we exchanged contact information. The second was a very sweet old woman I am familiar with, but haven't worked on since 2021. It was a very soft, pleasant session with some lovely conversation. I will miss them both.

My co-workers, on the other hand, I have no idea what their problem was. None of them said a word to me all day, except the office manager, who wished me well as I was clocking out and leaving. Honestly, they've all been snubbing me a lot these past several months for unknown reasons, but being treated like I was invisible really got under my skin today. We used to have a pretty great relationship, but everyone has cooled significantly toward me, and I haven't the faintest idea why. At least it helped me leave without feeling guilty or, really, all that sad.

Anyway. I work all day again tomorrow and then I've got three days off in a row, so I should be able to get some stuff done then (if I don't sleep the whole time).

My life feels kind of chaotic, but like. Not completely in a bad way? I don't know. I'm just drifting through it.

There's about to be more job shuffling, I can feel it.

Lots of work stuff:( Read more... )


A low-income apartment complex opened up pre-applications online today, so I filled one out. It's brand new, not even finished yet (they're looking at completion in November) but it's in a neighborhood that's not so great. Many units are being set aside for the homeless population. But it would be a hundred dollars cheaper than what I pay my roommate now. I'm in a weird spot. Because I constantly fear he will ask me to leave, so I need a safety net, but I also don't want to sign a lease if I'm lucky enough for my application to be chosen in the lottery and be on my own if I don't have to be, you know? So I'm not... sure what I should do. If I do get chosen and don't take it, I can still be on the waitlist, but it'll be years long because when people are lucky enough to get into low-income housing, they do not leave.

The temperature is finally going down, and I'm so relieved I could cry. All the windows are open and there's a beautiful cool breeze coming on in. It's downright chilly! We made it all the way to September without running the AC even once. (Not because I didn't want to, but because, if you've been here for awhile, you know that my roommate forbids using the AC because iT cOsTs MoNeY. Homeboy is high salaried management in an extremely popular tech company, has two cars, and goes to Europe three times a year, so I don't wanna hear it.)

May or may not have jury duty next week. Do not want.

Last but certainly not least, trickortreatex is back! I'm very excited. Hopefully spooky season will motivate me to get back into writing semi-regularly. We'll see! Time to nominate some things!

Aaaaand I have signed up for seasonsofdrabbles.

Come join us, if you're in the mood for a quick, bite-sized snack!

I can't believe the days are just running right by me without me really realizing. Can we slow it down, please? Geez.

Nothing huge has happened that is really worth talking about, I guess. I had another session with my new therapist that was really, really good; I think soon I will have to stop referring to her as "my new therapist" and just call her "my therapist."

The supplement I take now leaves me feeling highly motivated in the middle of the day, and I went a little wild on amazon when I decided, right there and then, I was going to change my health for the better. I bought an air purifier for my room, a new yoga mat, and some resistance bands. My headaches are still occurring every day, but they're less intense and they don't linger for too long. That's progress!

Writing is still really hard, for some reason. I have knocked everything else off of my to-do list and yet this is the one thing I can't quite dig into the way I want, which is very very annoying. I need to sign up for some small exchanges or challenges or something, maybe? Something with a hard deadline, and another person counting on me, because I signed up for something with no deadline ages ago and still haven't touched it. That's just the way it be, for me. There needs to be stakes.

Hope everyone's doing okay!