I periodically go back and read through old RP chatlogs from fandoms past, and through LJ books I made before I obliterated whatever journal it was from whichever platforms I was on 20 years ago. I still try to "clean up" my digital trail because omg I was such a mess even as late as 2018. I am so proud of past me for surviving until today because the Dark Stuff I was roleplaying/psychologically processing at that time was Serious Shit.
I like to think nowadays I'm more stable and optimistic about life and whump the muses just because a little bit of suffering is good for character development.
But I also spent literally an hour and a half this morning researching the extant present-day international law and revising the definition of genocide for a nonexistent 23rd Century context to include cultural groups not defined by nationality, race, ethnicity, or religion.
So clearly I am still Not Really Okay. Such is life, I suppose.
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Date: 2024-02-02 17:20 (UTC)I like to think nowadays I'm more stable and optimistic about life and whump the muses just because a little bit of suffering is good for character development.
But I also spent literally an hour and a half this morning researching the extant present-day international law and revising the definition of genocide for a nonexistent 23rd Century context to include cultural groups not defined by nationality, race, ethnicity, or religion.
So clearly I am still Not Really Okay. Such is life, I suppose.