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southernmedicineSome positivity.
+ I'm feeling a lot better. For the past couple of weeks, I would cry at least once a day, usually at work. Hours a day, tears sliding silently down my face while I worked on my clients. These past couple of days, no crying at all. My mind has not been crowded with nasty thoughts, like a demon whispering to me trying to weaken me so it could possess me.
+ Gabe, our DnD group's DM and also Blair's brother-in-law, contacted me directly (!) which is pretty cool because while we get along well, we don't really talk much directly to each other when we're not playing DnD. He asked me how much a massage costs at my work, and I offered to do it for him direct, at home with my own table, for cheaper instead. So I've got an appointment with him this week.
+ It was incredibly stressful and time consuming, but I did my taxes (I'm getting money back this year instead of having to pay!) and I secured some new health insurance for myself. It's affordable, and honestly not that great, but it sure is something.
+ I've been sitting here in the lab with Blair, on her college campus, keeping her company while she works on a project. I've burned through the entire season of Wonder Man, which I hadn't even heard about until I saw it by chance listed on the streaming website I use. It's really good, and I really like it.
+ Things are improving a little between Blair and I. She's not exactly being as affectionate as I was getting used to, but after a huge break-down in front of her the other night (and her being very understanding and supportive of my depressive episode) we at least feel like we're connecting a little better. I guess that's the thing about rock bottom, is that once you're there, the only way to go is up.
+ Voted today!
+ I'm feeling a lot better. For the past couple of weeks, I would cry at least once a day, usually at work. Hours a day, tears sliding silently down my face while I worked on my clients. These past couple of days, no crying at all. My mind has not been crowded with nasty thoughts, like a demon whispering to me trying to weaken me so it could possess me.
+ Gabe, our DnD group's DM and also Blair's brother-in-law, contacted me directly (!) which is pretty cool because while we get along well, we don't really talk much directly to each other when we're not playing DnD. He asked me how much a massage costs at my work, and I offered to do it for him direct, at home with my own table, for cheaper instead. So I've got an appointment with him this week.
+ It was incredibly stressful and time consuming, but I did my taxes (I'm getting money back this year instead of having to pay!) and I secured some new health insurance for myself. It's affordable, and honestly not that great, but it sure is something.
+ I've been sitting here in the lab with Blair, on her college campus, keeping her company while she works on a project. I've burned through the entire season of Wonder Man, which I hadn't even heard about until I saw it by chance listed on the streaming website I use. It's really good, and I really like it.
+ Things are improving a little between Blair and I. She's not exactly being as affectionate as I was getting used to, but after a huge break-down in front of her the other night (and her being very understanding and supportive of my depressive episode) we at least feel like we're connecting a little better. I guess that's the thing about rock bottom, is that once you're there, the only way to go is up.
+ Voted today!
